About

Though I've always found it challenging to describe myself, I feel that it makes sense to share a bit about my background here, so that you can see where I'm coming from.

My name is Minnamari Alexandra Helmisaari, and Mysterious Studio is the platform through which I share my various offerings and creative work.

I am a multidisciplinary creator and transformational coach born in Sweden and raised in Finland. I have a Masters in Science with a major in Serious Games and a Bachelor in Arts with a major in Media Arts, Aesthetics and Narration. Simply put, I could not choose between art or science but chose to study both. This choice reflects my fascination with learning to see the world from multiple points of view, and I am comfortable inhabiting multifaceted positions.

After having worked as a university lecturer for 5+ years (mainly teaching Media Technology for Visual students but also lecturing subjects such as Game-based learning and Project development among many others), I have shifted my main focus to my own creative work, and particularly, to guiding introspective processes. One of my most important getaways from teaching was the realization that what I most treasured in my meetings with the students was the opportunity to listen to their life stories, and that I would rather support them in being the unique person they were, than judging whether they fulfilled the course curriculum's goals or not. This realization was the main reason for my shift away from full-time lecturing, though I still enjoy teaching from time to time.

The transformative power of learning is something I value deeply. In all my different roles, my main focus is to create an open atmosphere where there is space for playful curiosity. I see & creativity & learning & play as synonymous. You can't have one without the other(s).

Backstory
Who? + What?

Previously I have made some attempts to focus my artistic practice into one specific area, but I can't seem to stay there for very long. That is why I am now instead embracing this diversity, and respecting my mutable nature by blending together different areas of creative expression.

Though the tools and techniques I use can vary, there are two central themes that form a red thread through my practice: Storytelling and Learning, with an emphasis on introspective processes and supporting the develoment of self-awareness.

I know how imperative self-awareness is from personal experience. In 2022-2023 I was experiencing a postpartum depression where emotions that I had been suppressing most my life could no longer be ignored. I see that time as the starting point for my process of seeking ways of understanding myself and releasing emotions and beliefs that were no longer serving me. This process has been going on from even earlier than that, but I believe our development is spiralic in nature. The awareness comes and goes but I have found that there is a baseline we can get to, from where it is easier to find our way back to ourselves. I am now in a place in my spiral when I feel called to start sharing my findings with others and guide or coach them through their own life processes.

When we're learning about ourselves and processing our experiences we can reclaim sides that have previously been suppressed or overlooked. And when we reconnect with those forgotten sides of ourselves, we can step more fully into our power and live a life that feels deeply fulfilling and true to us.

At the core, I believe that everything is interrelated, in complex and simple ways. And yet, we experience our lives as separated beings. The main aim of my practice is to experiment with, to learn, and to share about this paradoxical sense of separation/connectedness.

But mostly I'm just here to play.

If you speak the languages of Astrology and Human Design, you might be interested in knowing that I am a 1/3 Sacral Generator with the Cross of Rulership; and Gemini Sun, Aries Moon and Scorpio Rising.

I am also a mother of two, and a friend of the trees.

My Mission:

Empowering multidimensional individuality through the magic of play and Storytelling

The greatest mystery I know is life itself. And the portal through which we can most directly explore the mystery of life is within each and everyone of us. It's quite amazing, when you think about it. We have our own portals inside of us. Or maybe it's more accurate to say that we are our own portals. Just in being born, you have a life to experience and to explore. And the potential of what we can do with that life is infinite!

Except, it actually isn't. Everyone is born into their own specific circumstance and will be shaped by beliefs and conditioning throughout life. And I'm actually not of the belief that conditioning is all bad. It has its place. And it's inescapable, as we live in a world with so many different people and energies. We affect each other. And we're meant to do so. But I also believe that building awareness of our conditioning, and the way we affect each other is valuable, because it so directly impacts our lives, and the possibility space we can imagine and the range of choices we believe is available to us.

On the other hand, we could also say that our lives are not even meant to include infinite choice, but rather, that the choices we make should be true to us, to the truest version of us. When you follow what is true to your body it is no longer a matter of choice. You're just respecting the wisdom of your body. And paradoxically, that's a way that you can embody personal power in its truest sense, because you're allowing yourself to live as...yourself.

I'm all for developing personal power. Because I've lived the opposite too, in my people-pleasing past, in trying to mold myself into shapes that never quite fit, or were outright painful. And I wasn't even a better person for trying to do so. In fact, I believe my worst behaviors, where I've hurt other people through my actions, have come from situations where I've felt the most powerless. Back then, I might have believed I was justified, but in hindsight, I can see my actions were mostly coming from a place of fear.

And that is the core tension that I see reflected in the world around me. So much fear, draped in a costume of righteousness. But when you connect with your personal power, you don't need fear or righteousness. You can just be. Just be yourself, without trying to force the world to be like you. It can't be. You're the one who's meant to be like you. And in being yourself, you can more easily let other people be themselves.

At least, that has been my experience. And I'd love to share what I've learned with you. In so doing, I hope I can lead by example and inspire you to be you.

I would really love to see that. And if you feel so called, I urge you to take the step to share your unique insights, skills and life wisdom. Whatever form they take. So that you can lead by example and inspire the people around you.

It is thanks to the inspirational examples of others that I myself dared to start sharing my voice, my creations and my talents more broadly. So if there is anything at all that I can do to empower others to do the same, in their own way, in their own life, I intend to do what is in my power.

If you want to invite my perspective and my guidance into your process, you are most welcome to connect with me.

But first, a word of warning. My perspective is colored by my life experiences and by my approach of holding space with respect for both the darkness and the light. Be mindful that this is a process of deconstruction just as much as it is a process of creation. And transformation can feel painful just as much as it is powerful and meaningful.

With transformative cycles being something of a special focus of mine, I am someone who finds deep satisfaction in guiding people through changes in their life. I'm here to remind you that each shift, no matter how challenging, brings with it the potential to learn and grow.

I'm rooting for you. Not just because I want to sell you my offerings (in fact, if you don't resonate with my approach you should not purchase anything from me), but because I believe the world would be a more interesting place if more people lived in touch with their true selves. And that's the kind of world I would like to live in.

Perspective Why?

Nothing to fear, just something to Know

Nothing to prove, just something to show

From this pain something good will grow

From deepest darkness, we learn how to glow.